Hrithik Roshan filmography

It depends on which illusion you choose to live by. If you focus only on yourself, you would be sad. Show more It depends on which illusion you choose to live by. If you focus only on yourself, you would be sad. But if you focus on others, you can be happy. You can create love and it will fill you.. Hide

I am an explorer, an adventurer... what the world fears, I want to conquer. You can expect the unexp Show more I am an explorer, an adventurer... what the world fears, I want to conquer. You can expect the unexpected from me. Hide

(March 2000): I can never wear the same shirt twice because it's always torn by the time I come home Show more (March 2000): I can never wear the same shirt twice because it's always torn by the time I come home! Hide

(July 2011) I believe that if you're going to risk your life and jump off a building, you bloody wel Show more (July 2011) I believe that if you're going to risk your life and jump off a building, you bloody well should make it look convincing. Unless you are honest during moments of physical intimacy, you will appear uncomfortable and guilty on screen. When you see the lead pair in an English movie kissing, it's rarely offensive or 'a bit much'. That's because of the conviction in their performance. Hide

My character. Everything you do in life is with the sole purpose of building a character. If you hav Show more My character. Everything you do in life is with the sole purpose of building a character. If you have grown from every situation positive or negative, then your character is built. But if you're still blaming God and complaining about your circumstances still, then your character is not even defined. Hide

(July 2003): "Of course I'm curious about porn. It exists because there is a market for it. It needs Show more (July 2003): "Of course I'm curious about porn. It exists because there is a market for it. It needs to exist but it should be properly channelised. It shouldn't be accessible to everyone." Hide

Stammering is something that's never left my mind. I still can't watch the King's Speech. Stammering is something that's never left my mind. I still can't watch the King's Speech.

(July 2001): "I thought of every possible angle which would drive me towards stardom. But I never th Show more (July 2001): "I thought of every possible angle which would drive me towards stardom. But I never thought of, when I become a star, what will I do, how will I handle it. Everything has hit me all at once. I realize I don't have the talent to handle it." Hide

My sons. They were the only source of some sort of happiness for me. I had to create a world for the Show more My sons. They were the only source of some sort of happiness for me. I had to create a world for them that gave them the hope that their dad would be all right. I didn't want them to see that their father had been beaten. My mission now is just to make them happy. Hide

I'm feeling centered and content. At peace with myself. I'm finally owning my space. I feel like I'm Show more I'm feeling centered and content. At peace with myself. I'm finally owning my space. I feel like I'm journeying back to the person I was. Hide

(July 2004): I've done films without optimum excitement. It didn't work. I can afford to take my tim Show more (July 2004): I've done films without optimum excitement. It didn't work. I can afford to take my time now. Hide

Hrehaan and Hridhaan are pure angels and pure delight. Unfortunately, they are not naughty and that Show more Hrehaan and Hridhaan are pure angels and pure delight. Unfortunately, they are not naughty and that keeps me a little concerned as I too, was not naughty as a kid. Hide

(February 2006): I'm just a student who is still learning, so I can't give discourses on acting. (February 2006): I'm just a student who is still learning, so I can't give discourses on acting.

I am an extremist. I'm powerful in every direction I go. So if I go into a dark space in my head I c Show more I am an extremist. I'm powerful in every direction I go. So if I go into a dark space in my head I can make it really dark. Which is why it has been a constant practice to not go there. Hide

Feelings are temperamental, they change everyday. I base my life on outcome and results. Every day I Show more Feelings are temperamental, they change everyday. I base my life on outcome and results. Every day I wake up, and set myself four things to do, which I have never done before or are difficult, even impossible. At the end of the day I tick them off. If I've accomplished what I set out to do, I sleep like a baby. Hide

Well, let's put it like this... if I ever write a book, Bang Bang and my personal ups and downs duri Show more Well, let's put it like this... if I ever write a book, Bang Bang and my personal ups and downs during this period will be the interval point of the book. The second half of my life will be the ... (pauses for a while) the better part of my life (smiles). Hide

(June 2010 -- Q on dance and acting) I am an actor and dance is one of the things I do, one of the e Show more (June 2010 -- Q on dance and acting) I am an actor and dance is one of the things I do, one of the expressions of my acting. Like sometimes I have a tear in my eye, sometimes I say fast dialogues, sometimes I jump off buildings, and sometimes I dance. If one expression is appreciated more than the other, then that's somebody's point of view. I don't consider dance my forte. I do it like I do everything else -- struggle to make it my best. Hide

(July 2003): "I've never had a decent haircut except the short one I'm sporting right now for "Laksh Show more (July 2003): "I've never had a decent haircut except the short one I'm sporting right now for "Lakshya"." Hide

(November 2010): This movie [Guzaarish] didn't just help me grow as an actor, it made me grow as a p Show more (November 2010): This movie [Guzaarish] didn't just help me grow as an actor, it made me grow as a person. And I can't thank Sanjay Leela Bhansali enough for that. Hide

(November 2000): "I take all this hysteria as a compliment." (November 2000): "I take all this hysteria as a compliment."

(September 2003): I'm above hits and flops now. I wish to go down in the annals of Indian cinema his Show more (September 2003): I'm above hits and flops now. I wish to go down in the annals of Indian cinema history as a good actor. Hide

Good looks is not really about eyes, ears, nose, mouth, construction... it's about expression. There Show more Good looks is not really about eyes, ears, nose, mouth, construction... it's about expression. There are lots of faces that are very beautiful, but if you don't express right, then it's of no use. But it doesn't hurt that people find me nice looking (smiles). Hide

I have met quite a few quadriplegic patients and their families (while researching his role for Guza Show more I have met quite a few quadriplegic patients and their families (while researching his role for Guzaarish). There is a lot of pain and suffering that they go through. The extent of that we can never really understand. But what is amazing is that, though they have all these problems in their lives, never is there one moment when they are not smiling. And that is a lesson that I think is a gift that I received from them, and a gift that I think you all will receive from this movie. Hide

No one has ever wronged me. I don't give them the power to wrong me. No one has ever wronged me. I don't give them the power to wrong me.

(August 2004): I am a complete 'foodie'. It's in the genes. I can't stop eating! It's only that I fe Show more (August 2004): I am a complete 'foodie'. It's in the genes. I can't stop eating! It's only that I fear of the world finding out that I have a bad body which makes me strive to have my diet in place and exercise right. Hide

(March 2002): "I can be the best James Bond there is." (March 2002): "I can be the best James Bond there is."

'Half your life you work at becoming famous. And when you do, you hide behind dark glasses!' - Al Pa Show more 'Half your life you work at becoming famous. And when you do, you hide behind dark glasses!' - Al PacinoAgain, this applies to an unfortunate few. There are certain actors who are very, very shy people. When they start off, they realize they can be extremely confident behind the mask of a character. When they become stars, the fame and popularity compels them to stand before the world as themselves with the same amount of confidence and they are unable to do that because they are so used to a mask! Suddenly when stardom happens, you become greater than the character and everywhere people want to know about you, want more of you. Many times we don't feel that confident and so we don't want to be in that limelight. We want to hide away because we don't consider ourselves as good as what we are in the film...Greek God good looks, perfect emotions, those are actually just a mirage.Even I went through the same thing right after Kaho Naa...Pyaar Hai. But once I accepted that I could never be as good as what I portray on screen, I found a lot of peace within. It's okay not to be as good. The image is one thing and a human being another; it's also very hard to live up to another image. Infact, I would go so far as to say that it's futile. Basically it is very unintelligent if you get mixed up between the persona and the person. Of course it's a trap that a lot of fools fall into as actors.Somewhere this trying to hide away arises from insecurity too. You want to make your fans happy. You want them to be impressed by you and you don't think that the way you are in real life is good enough to you put on an act. You speak with a deeper voice or you start walking with a swagger, a little frown on your forehead just to show what a lot of weight you have on your shoulders because you are a star. I know this because I was doing exactly these things for a while after Kaho Naa...Pyaar Hai's release.One day, I was in Delhi surrounded by fans, signing autographs and playing Raj from the film to the hilt. I had done that character to perfection in my head and it wasn't a tough act. So I was putting on this whole Raj act, talking and signing autographs and being a star when suddenly I saw my parents standing a little ahead, watching me from a distance. I was so embarrassed because I knew that they knew the truth about what and who I really am. I felt so ashamed at that moment. In an instant I just threw my hands up, I drew a breath, sat down and went back to being myself. I started talking like myself, being a fool and not being too hard on myself for allowing myself to be a fool. And things just became so much easier and I started enjoying myself. That was a whole load off my shoulders. Hide

I really would want to create and shoot an anthem with all the flags of the world. That film would b Show more I really would want to create and shoot an anthem with all the flags of the world. That film would be played in cinemas across the world before a movie begins and have all the people from various countries stand up for each other's flags as 'One World'. Can you imagine how that would unite us! Can you see the pride in that! How beautiful that would be! Hide

(July 2001): "Hollywood is definitely happening to me but right now I'm not happening for Hollywood. Show more (July 2001): "Hollywood is definitely happening to me but right now I'm not happening for Hollywood. Maybe if offers still last by 2005 I will. I'm committed until then." Hide

I am so full of love that it's not possible I won't find love. I am so full of love that it's not possible I won't find love.

It's not a privilege to be born as a rich and famous man's kid, mostly it's a disadvantage. You tend Show more It's not a privilege to be born as a rich and famous man's kid, mostly it's a disadvantage. You tend to become lazy and complacent and used to luxury. Where Hrehaan and Hridhaan are privileged is in their being born to a father who has experienced ups and downs and acquired a humble sense of life and the world. And if you have space, these few additions are also great. Hide

(June 2002): I won't do a film with any film-maker unless he gives me a bound script... My date diar Show more (June 2002): I won't do a film with any film-maker unless he gives me a bound script... My date diary's blank from 2003 onwards. Hide

There will be durations where you will be out there and not see them for days on end and that's the Show more There will be durations where you will be out there and not see them for days on end and that's the time you should feel stronger about yourself that you are working to provide for them. When I miss them too much, instead of feeling too bad, I rephrase it and tell myself that I am doing this as I am a provider. And they will be better people knowing that they had a strong father who went out there and provided for them. Love should never disempower you. It should empower you even more. Hide

(November 2010): [Guzaarish] teaches you how to truly Live and enjoy and be happy -- wherever you ar Show more (November 2010): [Guzaarish] teaches you how to truly Live and enjoy and be happy -- wherever you are, whoever you are, with whatever problems you have. Hide

(July 2004): I've done various films for various wrong reasons. They didn't get me anywhere. (July 2004): I've done various films for various wrong reasons. They didn't get me anywhere.

[July 2012 - honored with his wife, businesswoman Sussanne Khan Roshan, as 'India's premier power co Show more [July 2012 - honored with his wife, businesswoman Sussanne Khan Roshan, as 'India's premier power couple'] The whole idea of two people being one and loving as one is all wrong. You have to accept the other person as an individual and love each other as two individuals. Stand apart and love. Be unafraid to give and receive love as an individual. Hide

(December 2000): "Some day I want to be better than Shah Rukh Khan. And I will be better than him, i Show more (December 2000): "Some day I want to be better than Shah Rukh Khan. And I will be better than him, if I continue working the way I am. Some day, I would like to achieve more than what Shahrukh has achieved in his ten years. But first, give me my ten years of time." Hide

I'm a child myself. So how can I think of having one right now! I'm a child myself. So how can I think of having one right now!

[February 2008 - describing his character Akbar's relationship with his empress, Jodhaa] His first a Show more [February 2008 - describing his character Akbar's relationship with his empress, Jodhaa] His first attraction is not one of love or lust or one of those. Somewhere I think he believes in her strength, her strength as an individual. Hide

(2004): I would like to meet the person who shot my father. (2004): I would like to meet the person who shot my father.

Highs and lows are part of life. When you are on a high, you have to learn to ride that wave and enj Show more Highs and lows are part of life. When you are on a high, you have to learn to ride that wave and enjoy it. And when you're low, you should learn to gain perspective, use your sense of humour and laugh even harder. Hide

(2001): I make the best Spanish omelettes in the world, but I won't tell you the recipe! (2001): I make the best Spanish omelettes in the world, but I won't tell you the recipe!

You have to be stupid to not be humble. We are all mortals. And whatever power is bestowed upon us h Show more You have to be stupid to not be humble. We are all mortals. And whatever power is bestowed upon us has been done by others. Hide

(July 2004): I am the person I am today primarily due to the fine example set by both my parents. (July 2004): I am the person I am today primarily due to the fine example set by both my parents.

My grandfather, my nanaji, J. Om Prakash is my other role model. He is someone I have tried to emula Show more My grandfather, my nanaji, J. Om Prakash is my other role model. He is someone I have tried to emulate and I hope to be like him when I am his age. His silent strength, his wisdom, is amazing. I haven't come across a more well read man than him. There's a peace and calm and serenity about him that is wonderful. When I am with him, I instantly become a student. I just sit and watch and listen to him and he always has something educating and inspirational to tell me... Something from his past, some incident that happened, or some book that he has read. He always tries to instill some good quality in me. I look forward to meeting him and sometimes when I am not able to meet him, I feel starved for his company, of the things that he teaches me. He has influenced me a great deal. Hide

(July 2003): "I'm not religious. I don't visit temples. But I hope there is a superpower." (July 2003): "I'm not religious. I don't visit temples. But I hope there is a superpower."

(December 2000): "Every once a week, I get up and feel that I cannot act any more. I just get very u Show more (December 2000): "Every once a week, I get up and feel that I cannot act any more. I just get very unsure of myself. But, once I give my first shot, I'm back on track. Insecurity isn't bad, it makes me work harder." Hide

I make peace with it when I see the first copy of my film. I have never been surprised with the fate Show more I make peace with it when I see the first copy of my film. I have never been surprised with the fate of my film. It's all done in my head. Hide

(June 2010 - Q: "Don't you perceive [when dancing] that you are doing something that is really speci Show more (June 2010 - Q: "Don't you perceive [when dancing] that you are doing something that is really special?") It's not that I am the best dancer, but it looks good when I dance because I have these really narrow feet and my centre of gravity is really high, which gives the illusion of tipping over, an illusion that makes every step look better when I do it. That's the only way I can analyse it. Hide

On his infamous kiss with Aishwarya Rai Bachchan in Dhoom:2 (2006): "I did give it a lot of thought. Show more On his infamous kiss with Aishwarya Rai Bachchan in Dhoom:2 (2006): "I did give it a lot of thought. There was enough reason and inspiration here to go ahead. I tried to make it as beautiful as possible. And I stand by it completely" (April 2007). Hide

If I had a son I'd like him to be Hrithik. His eyes speak volumes. His body language and his whole d Show more If I had a son I'd like him to be Hrithik. His eyes speak volumes. His body language and his whole demeanor is breathtaking. Main to fidaa ho gayi. Actor ho to aisa (Translation: I am in love with his work, actors should be like him): Shabana Azmi Hide

[Questioned in January 2017 about his favourite car -- among a personal garage known to also contain Show more [Questioned in January 2017 about his favourite car -- among a personal garage known to also contain a Ferrari Modena, Maserati Spyder, and Rolls Royce Ghost Series II] I think at the moment, it's got to be my MINI Cooper. The reason simply is that my kids love it and it's a great car for a dad to take his kids on a ride. Hide

They say that many people come in your life, but some leave a footprint on your heart after which yo Show more They say that many people come in your life, but some leave a footprint on your heart after which your life is never the same again. For me it is not a person, it is a movie. Guzaarish has changed the way I see the world. It has given a whole new perspective to my life. Hide

(2000): "I am glad I have the intelligence to understand what is happening to me. If I allow myself Show more (2000): "I am glad I have the intelligence to understand what is happening to me. If I allow myself to get affected by all this hype, I'll stunt my growth as an actor and be damned for life. I know that I still have a long way to go before I can even aspire to equal the achievements of any of the superstars. I know I am good at my job, and I am sure I will be damn good one day but right now, I also know how bad I can be." Hide

(February 2006): My big dream is to take our cinema to a world platform. The idea of acting in a Jac Show more (February 2006): My big dream is to take our cinema to a world platform. The idea of acting in a Jackie Chan film doesn't excite me. That's betrayal. Hide

I was the most unlikely candidate to become an actor. I was the most unlikely candidate to become an actor.

I guess when you detach yourself from issues that you thought were humongous and put yourself in per Show more I guess when you detach yourself from issues that you thought were humongous and put yourself in perspective, like when you see that even the solar system can be just a dot and insignificant in the universe, it kind of gives you a spiritual edge, and so the only thing that becomes important in life is feeling good about yourself. So whether you're searching for things that you're passionate about on the ground floor or 100th of the evolution ladder, your soul will only be stimulated if your eventual goal is happiness, not fame and riches. Hide

(February 2001): "Every moment of my life, I live under threat. I have two gunmen with me. If I die Show more (February 2001): "Every moment of my life, I live under threat. I have two gunmen with me. If I die now I will be immortal. Everything finished in a year. I will be a legend!" Hide

(November 2000): "I have been elevated to such a high status that the fall will be very steep." (November 2000): "I have been elevated to such a high status that the fall will be very steep."

Hrithik has the fluidity and rhythm to move effortlessly through songs. I think he got this sense of Show more Hrithik has the fluidity and rhythm to move effortlessly through songs. I think he got this sense of rhythm from his grandparents. His grandfather was a great composer and his grandmother a very good singer. His uncle Rajesh Roshan is a well-known composer and even Hrithik's father Rakesh has a very good music sense. His musical heritage comes alive in his dance moves. Hrithik's a brilliant actor too. Woh itna sundaracting karta hai ki main hairaan ho jaati hoon. (Translation: I am stunned by his acting.) I think his greatest gift from God is that he looks very innocent. His eyes are so deep and transparent: Lata Mangeshkar Hide

On Parenting - I'd say that I am a guide to them (Hrehaan and Hridaan), a friend to them and a fathe Show more On Parenting - I'd say that I am a guide to them (Hrehaan and Hridaan), a friend to them and a father to them. Different things at different times. Hide

(January 2004): I don't know fashion and I have no taste. (January 2004): I don't know fashion and I have no taste.

I have a fetish about the aesthetics of my body. I don't like myself when I am out of shape. I miss Show more I have a fetish about the aesthetics of my body. I don't like myself when I am out of shape. I miss my gym. Hide

Thanks to Farhan, with Lakshya, I learnt what it meant to be completely unaware of the camera. It wa Show more Thanks to Farhan, with Lakshya, I learnt what it meant to be completely unaware of the camera. It was also my first sync sound film, which was terrifying. Hide

I'm a man of truth. I believe in spreading love, I believe in looking at life beyond the material. I Show more I'm a man of truth. I believe in spreading love, I believe in looking at life beyond the material. I believe in people and that we are a part of the whole. Hide

I was always the pet of my teachers in school probably because I was considered to be very cute. Bec Show more I was always the pet of my teachers in school probably because I was considered to be very cute. Because of my innocent looks I usually got away with a lot of mischief. I was spoilt and pampered by everyone. All I had to do was sport a lost-boy look and I would have things my way. At home too, if I wasn't given something I wanted, I would simply sit with a long face till I got it. Hide

My regular day is actually quite irregular when compared to a normal person's day. I get up and put Show more My regular day is actually quite irregular when compared to a normal person's day. I get up and put on make-up. Which normal person does that? Hide

(July 2003): "It's not a prerequisite for an actor to be obsessed about his looks. I know there are Show more (July 2003): "It's not a prerequisite for an actor to be obsessed about his looks. I know there are people who don't look in the mirror at all and I'm getting there." Hide

A line from my favourite poem goes: If you can meet with triumph and disaster... and treat those two Show more A line from my favourite poem goes: If you can meet with triumph and disaster... and treat those two impostors just the same. Hide

With Koi Mil Gaya, I understood the flight of an actor for the first time. With Koi Mil Gaya, I understood the flight of an actor for the first time.

[recalling, in 2009 as an adult and successful actor, his childhood battle to overcome a crippling s Show more [recalling, in 2009 as an adult and successful actor, his childhood battle to overcome a crippling stammer] I suffered with a speech problem, and it took me a long, long, long time. It's been the hardest kind of struggle for someone who wants to be an actor. But I got the help at the right time, and now I'm -- here. So miracles do happen! I want to tell all the families out there, the children who are struggling and living without hope, to just believe enough -- and look at me. You can change your life! Hide

(December 2006): If someone pretends not to recognize me, then he needs to get a life. (December 2006): If someone pretends not to recognize me, then he needs to get a life.

On his first villain role in Dhoom:2 (2006): "I've played the good guy long enough. Now it's time fo Show more On his first villain role in Dhoom:2 (2006): "I've played the good guy long enough. Now it's time for me to get seriously evil. I always wanted to play a cool villain. And since the bad guy in Dhoom:2 (2006) is multi-dimensional, playing this nightmarish guy is a dream come true". Hide

(2000, when asked about his fantasy woman): "Gabrielle Anwar. I had a huge crush on her for ever so Show more (2000, when asked about his fantasy woman): "Gabrielle Anwar. I had a huge crush on her for ever so long. Jessica Rabbit from Who Framed Roger Rabbit (1988). I thought she was really hot!" Hide

(December 2002): "After two years of being in films I've realized that I don't need to do movies jus Show more (December 2002): "After two years of being in films I've realized that I don't need to do movies just for the sake of it. Now I will not do a film unless the role is to die for. It may sound preposterous but I'd also like to do something like 'Spiderman' or 'A Beautiful Mind'. Only such cinema stimulates me. I don't want to do the routine stuff." Hide

(July 2003): "My physique is all wrong. I'd like to change everything about my looks." (July 2003): "My physique is all wrong. I'd like to change everything about my looks."

(January 2004): I've scrapped my entire working style and taken on a new approach. The release of La Show more (January 2004): I've scrapped my entire working style and taken on a new approach. The release of Lakshya (2004) will prove whether the new approach is right or not. If it doesn't work I'll go back to the old mode of working. If it works, I'll be adopting this style in all my roles. Hide

Creativity should never the about money. True, money is at the centre of our existence. But it is no Show more Creativity should never the about money. True, money is at the centre of our existence. But it is not all-important. There are other things which make life richer, which have nothing to do with money. If you measure money against your desires, you will always be poor. But if you measure money against your needs, you will always be rich. Money should be a means to an end, not an end in itself. People always react to what they see. And they give according to what they see. If they see a hungry man, they will give him food, if they see a poor man, they will give him money, if they see an angry man, they will shun him and if they see a promising man, they will give him opportunities. That's human instinct. Instead of showing your anger and frustration and helplessness at the struggle you may be going through, show them your promise and do it with a smile.Be honest with yourself. You have to be brutally honest with yourself first, to be sure whether you have it in you to make it. That was the first thing I did. I took a good, hard look at myself to see if I had the potential.There was an acquaintance of mine who struggled in the industry for about five to six years. He never got a decent job. When he was 29, he left India and went to America and today he is a millionaire. I used to keep telling him, maybe this is not meant for you, maybe you're meant for something else. But he was relentless and he was hung up about making it in films. Now he tells me, 'Hrithik you were so right. I wish I had not wasted those seven years of my life!' My point here is, if you are not getting where you want to in the first two years, if you have not even started off, then there's something else meant for you. Chase another dream! Hide

(July 2011) My last proper vacation was in 2003. I need another. (July 2011) My last proper vacation was in 2003. I need another.

(July 2006): One mistake we always make is to ape the West. We attempt films that we think they will Show more (July 2006): One mistake we always make is to ape the West. We attempt films that we think they will like. The true crossover films are Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon (2003) and Life Is Beautiful (2000), where the director goes entirely by his conviction, culture, community and conditioning. I am hoping, not just for me and my father and family, but for Indian cinema that Krrish (2006) will succeed, so we can envision an even bigger extravaganza. We want to afford that freedom to take our cinema higher. I believe we are very close now to getting noticed on a world platform. Hide

(July 2004): "Lakshya" is my most subtle performance. "Koi... Mil Gaya" was an in-your-face performa Show more (July 2004): "Lakshya" is my most subtle performance. "Koi... Mil Gaya" was an in-your-face performance. Hide

My bond with my boys is true and strong, not just because they are my sons, but because we three are Show more My bond with my boys is true and strong, not just because they are my sons, but because we three are perfectly cast in characters that get along so well when we are together. Nothing remains special if you are not constantly pushing your imagination to discover and invent possibilities. Fatherhood didn't just happen to me, I am deliberately living it, re-imagining it and rediscovering it every day. It is as beautiful as I make it, just like anything else in life. Hide

I am so happy with where I am and who I am right now that if I change even a single thing; it would Show more I am so happy with where I am and who I am right now that if I change even a single thing; it would change the truth of who I am. So, I wouldn't change anything. I am very happy and proud of every single experience I have had. Hide

(July 2003): "Quite often I feel that there is no God. War, natural calamities, handicaps, suffering Show more (July 2003): "Quite often I feel that there is no God. War, natural calamities, handicaps, suffering. When I see all this, I fear there's no God. And the thought scares me shitless." Hide